The day I hit “restart” on my life was so typical and ordinary it’s almost ridiculous to write about it all of these years later, but I do want to write about it, because that ordinary day led to the extraordinary place I find myself in now – a published author, nurse health coach, blogger.
It had only been a matter of months since I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and I was doing the same thing that I had been doing for months – lying on the couch while my two young daughters, just 2 and 4 years old at the time, watched TV.
My whole body ached and I was so fatigued I struggled to keep my eyes open for more than a few minutes at a time. My body felt completely sapped of any energy and my head was so foggy I was barely aware of what time of day it was.
I suddenly pictured many days for many years spent the same way, and all of the moments in my girls’ lives that I would miss out on, and I was overcome with grief for the life that I was supposed to have, for the mum that I would never be.
Then I got angry. Really angry. It wasn’t fair that I couldn’t live the life I wanted, chase my dreams, or be the mum I always wanted to be. I thought why should I have to live with pain and fatigue for the rest of my life. I was pissed at the whole medical profession for not being able to fix me, and for telling me that this was as good as it was going to get. I was the victim of a really shitty illness and it was their job to save me from it.
Maybe it was divine intervention, maybe I’d just had a gutful of feeling lousy, I don’t know, but all of a sudden the anger went away, the grief went away, and it was replaced with determination. In that moment, I decided I wasn’t going to play the victim game anymore. It seemed pointless to blame doctors for where I was. I was the reason I was wasting my days on the couch.
I was done waiting around for my doctor to fly in my window with a shiny red cape flowing behind him, to present me with a magic pill. I put myself in charge of my health, and finally accepted that it was my responsibility. I made myself CEO of Melanie O’Shea Health Inc.
From that day on, as CEO, I held myself responsible for the state of Melanie O’Shea Health Inc. and I did whatever I could to improve things. I Googled for as long as I could manage (some days it was only a few minutes), to find anything that might help me, and I took action. I hit plenty of road blocks and some days I felt like giving up, but I soon started to see results.
Now, several years later, I barely have any symptoms at all, in fact I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been. I clawed my life back from fibromyalgia, and I’ve written a book about my recovery so others can claw their lives back too.
It all started with my Attitude Change day.