Divorce & Diagnosis
There I was, 30 years old. Newly divorced and trying to find myself again after 11 years spent with an emotionally abusive, controlling man.
I was totally and utterly lost, empty inside.
After years of swallowing my feelings and ignoring that little voice inside my head, I had completely lost sight of who I was, what I wanted and what I needed, and I had absolutely no idea of where I was heading. I had just enrolled in a nursing degree, and I had two young daughters depending on me.
Then, to make things really interesting, my eldest daughter, Rhiannon, was diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called Williams Syndrome, and I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia – a debilitating condition characterised by chronic fatigue, muscle pain, aching joints, migraines, ‘foggy’ brain, memory problems, and insomnia.
Healing & Helping
The paediatrician said my daughter would likely need special needs education, therapies, surgeries, and specialists throughout her life, and may never live an independent life. My doctor told me there was really nothing I could do about my fibromyalgia symptoms, and I’d just have to learn to live with it.
For a while, I managed OK. Then I started getting migraines while trying to read my university notes, and there would be whole days where I could barely get off the couch because I was so fatigued. Most nights, I’d be so tired I’d only have enough energy to cook my girls a simple meal like eggs on toast, and I would be so physically exhausted I wouldn’t bother eating myself. It got to the point where the best option seemed to be giving full custody to the girls’ dad.
That thought scared me, and flicked a switch in my head. I decided if doctors couldn’t fix me, I’d figure out how to do it myself. All I’d ever wanted was to be a mum, and I wasn’t about to give that up! That day was a major turning point in my life.
I call that day my Attitude Change (AC) Day.
It was the day I got my attitude on and started taking my life back from fibromyalgia. I set out to heal herself. I tackled my symptoms one by one, trying different diet, exercise and lifestyle changes, until I found there really wasn’t any symptoms left to manage.
I put myself in charge of my own health, and I got my life back.
I finished my nursing degree with distinction, and started working as a nurse. I was so excited to be helping people, and to be making a difference, but my nursing career was short-lived. It was challenging, and I enjoyed that, but I wanted to do more to help people take charge of their own health and wellbeing, and I felt I couldn’t do that as a nurse.
Authoring & Awakening
One day, a close friend of mine asked if I could jot down some tips that she could send to a friend of hers, who had just been diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I sat down one night at my laptop and typed up three pages of tips for her! I realised I had a lot to share, and what I had learned from my own recovery could potentially help many others.
A year later, I published my book FibromyAWESOME.
I wanted to do more to help other women living with chronic pain and chronic fatigue conditions, like fibromyalgia, to feel energetic and amazing once again, and so I enrolled in a health coaching certificate course.
Partway through my course I came down with a head cold, which then developed into debilitating vertigo. It was horrendous and I spent many days bedridden. There were days when I felt completely disorientated and discombobulated – I felt completely disconnected from my body. In the dark, I didn’t know which way was up or down – I was literally lost in the dark!
I did everything I could to heal myself, and eventually I was back to feeling like myself again. At the time, it seemed like medical condition, although my doctor could never find any reason for the vertigo, or why it lasted for so long.
In hindsight, it strikes me as more of a spiritual condition.
I don’t like to use the term ‘awakening’, because it’s so overused now, but that’s exactly what it was. I had to become disconnected from my body, from my rational self, in order to break through to the other side.
Since then, I have discovered my intuition on a level I’ve never known before, and I have experienced connection with the spirit world. I have embraced gifts that I feel were always a part of me, and in doing so, I have recognised that if we pay attention to what our body, mind and spirit tell us, we become the true experts in our own health and wellbeing.
As an intuitive health and wellness coach, it is my desire to help other women reconnect with their intuition, and to discover the road blocks holding them back from having the health and body they want, so they can live their ultimate life.